Heading Home

I'm officially leaving Australia on Wednesday, May 21st, 2008. Crazy, huh? I haven't set foot on American soil since early July, 2006, almost two years ago.

I Wish Things Weren't So Complicated.
The Boyfriend is staying behind to tie up loose ends. He's finishing projects at work and suffering the U.S. immigration bureaucracy hell while, in the meantime, trying to pack up our apartment and sell all our appliances. I feel bad leaving him with all this junk but I had no choice.

I'M BEING DEPORTED.

Yes, Lovelies, you've heard it here first. Now, you know your Porschie didn't do anything horrendous like inner-city terrorism or drug trafficking, I've just forgotten to renew my student visa and because I've been here without a visa for so long, my only option was to leave the country... immediately.

I sobbed and sobbed when they first told me this. I'd just got a new job a month before this, my thesis research had just been approved, and The Boyfriend and I were really excited about spending our Australian wintertime with a new workout regime (that included salsa lessons!). This has been almost devastating. The worst bit has been the dread I've been feeling, knowing that the day he'll see me off at the international airport is rapidly approaching.

This man has been my support, my best friend, my living journal, my roommate, my comfort and my Love for the last eight months. It's been this way since we first met. I don't want to say good-bye, even if our separation is just for a short while.

So... it's easier for him to obtain a permanent immigrant visa if he's my spouse. That's all I'm saying.

We've planned a holiday for my last few days here in Aussie-land. We're going to MELBOURNE, which is like Australia's New York City.

Since I first came to Australia, I've been longing to go to Melbourne and now, because I'm not allowed to re-enter the country for three years, this seems like the best time to see the east coast.

My 24th Year

So in the midst of all this chaos, I had the audacity to have a birthday. On May 10th of this year, I turned 24. I laid out a bunch of New Year's Goals (not "resolutions", that term never works) and this is them:

1. Learn to save money
   
2. Finish Master's degree
   
3. Write more
   
4. Appreciate my body
   
5. Join a church
   
6. Argue only when necessary
   

There are a lot more things I want to accomplish in my 24th year, but I believe these things are a good start.

Now, I don't want to sound all weird or anything but one of my immediate goals for my 24th year was to read The Secret and see what all the hubbub was about. The other day I was watching The Tyra Show and the topic was about de-cluttering your home. The guest interior decorator on the show mentioned the Law of Attraction and how if we think about clutter and see clutter and continue thinking "oh, I need to clean my house, I need to de-clutter my space" then we'll always live in a state of disorganisation because those thoughts of needing to clean actually continue the cycle of needing to clean. Does that make sense? So anyway, I decided to pick up The Secret (I bought the book about a year ago, read a few pages and then set it down when I noticed the strange looks I was getting from people on the train) and I read it cover to cover... while The Boyfriend was at work so he wouldn't think I was joining a cult or something.

I found this clip of this interview with Oprah on Larry King Live. Check it:


I think she may have something here. Before I came to Australia, I prayed for it, I bought books about Australia, I imagined how my life would be living here, and I thought about it and visualised my Australian life all the time. When I looked at the process of gaining enough money and scheduling flights and (*cough-cough*) visas it seemed impossible, so I made it my priority to focus on the end result: Life in Australia. And somehow everything fell into place and suddenly I was here. I don't even remember how it happened, it just seemed right. Perhaps the Law of Attraction was in affect.

After reading the book, I've become curious about how the world around me works and how I can change my reality. What do you think about the Law of Attraction and all this?

Last year Oprah did a show on The Secret and these are some highlights from the episode:


I'll post some photos and videos from our Melbourne holiday. Take care and I'll see you all soon!